Recharge

I never realized how self-centered I was until my schedule was TOTALLY dictated by someone else. I love love love being a Momma, but it's tough! Completing something so simple as the dishes is seldom done uninterrupted. Even a trip to the grocery store must be scheduled in between feedings and diaper changes. The selfish being inside of me misses the days when I could do what I wanted when I wanted. Since the beginning of parenthood, I have not had a day to call my own. I've had glimpses of "me" time, but they have been few and far between. When I have a couple hours to myself, whether it's working (6 hrs/week max), or going to see my friends, it's never just me by myself with nowhere to be or nothing to worry about. I'm always worrying about how much milk I left for Julia, and burdening someone else with my responsibility. I would like a day - a whole day - to just exist by myself. I haven't been by myself other than in the car here and there in a looong time. I know that this is just the beginning of parenthood, and that my selfish days are now long gone, but I think it's important to have occasional alone time to recharge my batteries so I can be even better at Mommahood. Alone time is important in my relationship with God. It's so refreshing to just be - just me and God. While I do miss having "me" time, I know that when I do get it, I'll be wondering how my Little Miss is doing and missing my time with her. There really is nothing like it. In the toughest of days when I'm really wishing I could have some time by myself, her warm snuggle or a sweet smile lets me know I'm exactly where I need to be :)

What I would do with a "recharge day" to myself:

1. Have a killer workout with a really good playlist

2. Take a long, hot shower - maybe even a bath!

3. Go to Breugger's and get a Breuggaccino (don't know how to spell it, but it's deeelish!) and a big, fat bagel with jalepeno cream cheese

4. Go outside and read while I sip my Breuggaccino in the sunshine

5. Go thrift store shopping

6. Go somewhere and get some yummy fish tacos for lunch and continue reading my book

7. Get a pedicure

8. Stop by Yogurt Mountain on my way home

9. Hang out with my husband and daughter and dog in the backyard while the sun sets over our fence